Hello my blog friends it seems as though it has been a decade since I have been on here. Life has just been VERY BUSY a good busy but needless to say BUSY. If you all dont know by now we have moved into a newer bigger home ....... thank you Jesus. Up until now 9 of us have lived in a 3 bedroom home where 5 boys occupied one room 2 girls in second and in the Master mom , dad, office, scrap room , it was crazy. Now I am so not complaining we made that our home and were blessed by that home for going on 7 years this April and have MANY amazing memories in that home so we our thankful by all means(1 Thess. 5:18 Give thanks in every circumstance of life: "In everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." (NKJV) ... however we for sure out grew the home just a little bit lol I had already had 4 children upon moving into that home and had 3 more while there so you can tell that it began to get a little cramped. We have been blessed to move closer to church in a newer 4 bedroom two story home
which is also a bit closer to church yet still in a good location for us we are more than blessed. I will post pics of both new and old home when I get a chance I am only jotting this all down very quickly and need to run I have little priorities yelling for MOM so need to get to it I have a million things to share and as the Lord provides time I will do just that so for now I pray you are all blessed and healthy and cant wait to chat and share real soon.
Until Next Time,
Cindy

Surrendering it all.............................................

Hello my friends as the Lord Leads and time permits I will share what the Lord is doing in my life. As of the last few weeks He is operating on my heart and as I am being purged of all the junk it is painful however needed in order for growth. As I am going through some painful things the Lord has shown me some things and one being that we have operations all the time to help us, fix us, and at times even save our lives so who wouldn't allow an operation if it meant any of these things however when we are put on God's operating table we tend to want to jump off(at least myself personally) and not allow it the second He begins that heart surgery it is painful and ugly and down right yucky however when He is finished if I would just allow Him to finish it will be so amazing we can all have hearts of Gold if we would just be still and LET GOD purge out all the garbage in our wicked sin filled hearts and not pick it back up. EASIER said than done I know however it can be done if we just trust, Walk by Faith and not by sight!!!! As we go through these times of purging may we take comfort in knowing "The Lord is near to all who call on Him,to all who call on Him in truth. He fulfills the desires of those who fear Him; he hears their cry and saves them" Psalm 145:18-20
"you will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy" John 16:20
Praise God we can sit on His lap go to His word and find all the comfort we need thank you Jesus
The Lord is showing me that there cannot be victories in my life without battles and no mountain tops without valleys so the things we go through good or bad are all important to get us through the next journey He has planned for each of us. I am also learning more and more to "keep my eyes focused on what is right, and look straight ahead to what is good." Proverbs 4:25
In these times of purging it is easy for us to allow enemy to trip us up and attack us to take our eyes off of what is good and right and on to the yuck being taken from us so my prayer for us all in these times is the verse above as well as Phil. 4:8 and 2 corinth. 4:8 and take comfort in knowing that everything we go through is for our good by a loving Father who only wants the best for His Kiddo's (you and I)....................................................
Father I thank you that you care for us enough to purge out the garbage in our lives I thank you for allowing me to see the difficult situations in my life I had not yet truly dealt with and as these difficult situations are arising please continue to comfort me as well as provide me the strength I need because I know in and of myself I cannot handle it alone Father I boldly except all the difficult times that will continue to arise because I know that in these times intense personal growth is taking place and for that I am blessed and excited Lord please keep attacks from the enemy at bay and keep me focused Father I pray that if anyone reading this is also in a time of purging and or reflection in their lives that you bring to them the same comfort you are bringing to me and may we keep our eyes focused on you may we stay in your word and on our knees and may we count it all JOY Jesus name amen......................................................................................
Until next time,
Cindy

Why a Troubled Heart???

The thru the word was so perfect for me today ................... have you all just ever sat down and felt as if the pages were coming to life and speaking directly to you as if God were setting you on His lap and speaking to you as a babe needing guidence and direction????? well this is how I felt today......... I have been in a state of solitude lately for a time of reflection, evaluation, and guidence in some area's of my life for 2009 and just in general and it has been trying and rewarding at the same time. In the beginning of the year I prayed for God to show me what He wanted for me in this next year for myself and family and He really convicted me on my schedule and family time and to stop almost eveything until I hear CLEARLY from Him not my flesh or any outside influence and that is what I have done I have felt led to sit this Bible Study out and not do so many extra curricular things dont get me wrong I am not ever doing any again however the Lord is teaching me it is OK to NOT go to EVERY SINGLE THING every single time, there are seasons for everything even resting and sitting things out. This is where my struggle comes in you see I have ALWAYS been one who has to be at everything I am a go, go , go, and do, do, do, kind of person I cant sit still for to long and this has been since I was about three however the Lord is showing me I need to learn to be still more in order to hear His still small voice and also to REALLY look and evaluate my life and where I am right now. When you get to busy you tend to overlook these things. I have had a very emotional week attacked every which way and beaten down at least several times a day (it seemed like that anyway) it didnt help I had that thing that visits most of us one time a month so emotions were higher than ever you'd think we would learn to take that into consideration oh no not me not till after the stinkin fact of coarse. Things transpired
this week in ways in which just continued to unravil the weeks events and at one point I was having very selfish pity party and on Wednesday an event took place that would be the icing on the cake by now I am frustrated, emotional, hurt, confused, irritated, and down right in the flesh
and it was noticable to others yikes.....................................................................................................
so I knew I was clearly in need of repentance and time with my Father to reflect on when and where I had gotten in this yucky mood I was in and He showed me duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
How quickly we(I) forget(ok speaking for myself here) we are His and not our own and that He has our everyday planned just for us and has given us the directions and tools we need for each day we just have to choose to come before His throne daily and ask Him to guide and direct and lead our every move throughout the day mmmm I let the attacks of the enemy get to me instead of remembering the Lord is my Shelter ALWAYS no matter how bad the storm is that we may be facing in our lives His love for us will set us free from any storm and that we can rise above it in His strength not our own PRAISE GOD!!! So today as I humbled myself before His feet crying out to Him with my hurts and frustrations as I begin to read the very first verse in thru the word I am gently reminded by my loving "Father" "Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in me." John 14:1 I could hear Him asking me Why Cindy why is your heart troubled and confused you believe in me right??? well yes of coarse I say then as I continue to read in verse 6 "I am the way, the truth, and the life(am I not? I heard Him say yikes that was convicting)
if I am the way the truth and the life WHY is your heart troubled my daughter? I heard as I continued on with my quiet time then skip down to verse 27 "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. (and again) let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." By now I am so comforted yet at same time feeling pretty silly for not in the mist of all the craziness this week remembering to just count it all joy and remember God has my back no matter what else is going on so I now am approaching last few verses of the day in John 15 verse 11 to be exact and what does it say????? "These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full." WOW you are amazing God I love it when His word comes alive to me and reaches me right where I am at that moment (not that His word isnt always alive) so I repented melted into His arms and released all that I was in the flesh holding on to it was awesome and amazing. you know the more I look deep into why I have these moments the moments of pure weakness it always breaks down to my selfishness and or sin or lack of communion with my Father.... so today as I began and first cried out to my Lord He opened my eyes and allowed the healing to begin He allowed me to see it wasnt Him that had gone anywhere but that it was I that stayed in my pity party instead of laying it all down at the foot of the cross and allowing Him to see me through it all and realize He allows these times to enter my life to teach me and grow me and I should be allowing them and counting them ALL as PURE JOY mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I love you Lord!! He truley is Lord of Lord's and KING of KING'S. As I continue in my season of rest and solitude I am going to count everything thrown my way as pure joy and know it is the Lord at work perfecting me into the Cindy He wants me to be AMENNNN. It's not about me it is ALL ABOUT HIM, if we can all just remember this we would have such an awesome peace I seek that peace for myself as well as pray for all of us to find it and it can only be found in our Lord there is nothing in any of us worthy of anything only in His strength, Remembering few days back in John 3:30
" He must become greater;I must become less and less" ........... May God bless you
Until Next Time,
Cindy

Happy New Year!!

To all my friends and family we wish you a very blessed, healthy, joyful, and prosperous New Year!! My prayer is that as we enter into 2009 we will all have a hunger and thirst for our Lord as never before and to faithfully daily seek His face and His will for our lives. I pray that as our stay here on earth continues to spiral away faster and faster that we would find our comfort and peace in the hands of our loving FATHER. God bless you all we pray your New Year is safe!!

Until Next Time,
Cindy Bolt

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL

"LET IT SNOW ,LET IT SNOW, LET IT SNOW!!!

SNOW IN VEGAS????? Well yes indeed we are covered in snow....... my mom says NO WAY 5 INCHES(well in Henderson that is)?? I said yep even news says so lol. When it first started I was on my way to Wal-Mart to run an errand and pick up some gifts I told myself when going into store oh well it sure is nice but I doubt it sticks well 20 minutes later and a whole lot of snow later to my surprise there it was all over the parking lot and cars . I had to scrape the snow from car before I could even drive go figure having to do that here. So I start driving and it didnt take long to become frazzled with the drivers around however said a prayer and the Lord reminded me not everyone has driven in snow before and for me to just becareful and do my part and praise God I OBEYED AND MADE IT HOME SAFE and so did Greg woohoo!!! When daddy arrived it was play in snow time we had a blast it was an awesome adventure in our own backyard and frontyard snow fights, snowmen,
snow angels you name it we did it . The best part of the night was the cuddle time which I am getting back to in a sec. however the coolest part of night was our Bella looking out window and saying very dramatic on the phone with her NaNa as she is looking out window, holding phone with one hand and useing the other hand to talk with and says "NaNa oh boy GOD IS SO AWESOME HE CAN EVEN MAKE THE SNOW IT IS BEAUTIFULLY " that's how she says beautiful lol. It was cute as she sat there and marveled at His works it made all frustrations of the day seem so meaningless and we sat and looked out the window in awe. I pray you all got to play in the snow and if not that you were able to just stop and marvel at His wonderful works and enjoy our "WINTER WONDERLAND" may God bless you all and keep us all safe on the roads tonight and tomorrow!!

God Bless you, May you all have a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND BLESSED NEW YEAR!

Until next year,
Cindy

JESUS.......... THE TRUE MEANING OF THE SEASON!!

Hello my blog friends,
I am not really blogging yet ......however I have felt led to share a few things with my sister's so here it goes and then I will Lord willing return to blogging in middle of January.
I know for most of us we have already been very busy and my prayer is that after the tea most of us can slow down some to REALLY ENJOY the season in which we are in. I pray every lady is truly blessed by all three nights of the tea we are so blessed praise you JESUS. I know there are many parties to still attend and dinners to be made, looking for the perfect gifts, wrapping those gifts, baking goodies, getting together with families (many in which are not saved and have no real knowledge of the true meaning of this season) and this if we dont stay focused can cause stress which in turn becomes worry for most and as we worry we turn our eyes off the very meaning of the season and onto the circumstances around us.
How can we buy for everyone on our list? Will friends and family understand that this year cant be like years past due to economy?? What will we do about the kids?
Well here is an awesome answer to those very questions .......God loved us soooooo
much He gave us His one and only Son that we the SINNER can live a life everlasting (John 3:16) wow that is the most amazing GIFT OF ALL isn't it??
Well yes it is we deserved death so I am thinking it is for sure the best gift ever,
so if that is the best gift then we should give it to all we come across our families,
the people standing in those very long lines, to the check out clerks whom for hours have dealt with the harried customers ALL DAY LONG , the people sharing our road ways with us, and so on... may we be filled with HIS LOVE ,GRACE, MERCY, PATIENCE, JOY, PEACE, GENTLENESS, KINDNESS, AND SPREAD IT TO THOSE AROUND US THAT IS THE GREATEST GIFT WE CAN GIVE. As far as our families and the giving of less I read a devotion this past week which had a thought to ponder "MAYBE THE FINANCIAL HARDSHIP WE ARE ALL FACING IS
FOR THE VERY PURPOSE OF TURNING OUR HEARTS SOLELY ON JESUS THIS SEASON AND NOT THE TRAPPINGS OF THIS WORLD " MY PRAYER FOR MYSELF FIRST AND FORMOST AS WELL AS ALL OF US IS THAT WE WILL BE CONTENT WITH OUR PERSONAL SITUATION AND TRUST THAT WE ARE RIGHT WHERE THE LORD HAS US FOR A TIME SUCH AS THIS.

"The fear of the Lord leads to life, and he who has it will abide in satisfaction; he will not be visited with evil". Prov. 19:23

"Now godliness with contentment is great gain." 1 Tim. 6:6

May we abide in the satisfaction only He can give and may we be content with whatever we can provide this season..................................

Father I lift up this Holiday season to you this evening I ask you to calm our hearts may we not be anxious for one thing but in ALL things come to you trusting you will provide what is needed. Father may we remember to be Filled with your JOY putting JESUS FIRST, OTHERS NEXT, AND OURSELVES LAST, Father do give us strength as we are out in a world in which is so rushed and rude that we would stand in the gap and be the piller of salt and that lamp that shines brightly
to those around may we all take time this season to share you with our families and may not one of us look back over this CHRISTmas and ask "WHERE DID IT GO AND WE DIDNT DO SO MANY THINGS BUT INSTEAD MAY WE BE FILLED TO OVERFLOWING WITH YOUR LOVE FOR US AND WE REALIZE HOW OUR SALVATION IS THE BEST GIFT EVER AND SHARE THAT WITH ALL AROUND.
Lord we are a blessed people and we thank you for the birth of Jesus .....................................
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS
IT'S IN YOUR NAME WE PRAY AMEN
FROM OUR HOME TO YOUR HOME "WE WISH YOU A VERY MERRY CHRISTmas
AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!
Until next time,
cindy

Battle of The Will's

Hello my friends,
It seems as if it has been a lifetime since blogging however only merely short of a month........I was on a little break to focus on cleansing my heart out yet again and was not planning on blogging this soon however the Lord had a bit of a different plan. I have to say I battle with a strong will inside more than I care to admit and as I heard Pastor say in a sermon recently about when left to ourselves, "if we are left undone even for a moment we are misrable human beings wicked to the very core"; wow not a sight I want to envision. Let me explain I have been in a season of forgetfulness and had taken my eyes off the Lord and onto self for a short time in which also seemed like a lifetime I'd say for about 2 months now in which I was in a wicked state. I had taken eyes off the Lord and onto a couple of my life circumstances and because of that not truly having that real fellowship with the Lord and it was a dangerous place to be in. The Lord over this weekend through a sis in Christ as well as hours in His word, has shown me many things almost to the point of being overwhelmed .....however He does only allow what we can handle so I know it was just what I needed at the time. FIRST He showed me I had been lying to myself this whole time about dealing with a serious issue in my life and in order for Him to use me in the mighty way The very way I had been praying to be used this would HAVE TO BE DEALT WITH I however had been in denial for sometime now. He had sent sister's in my path to speak to me about it and used other circumstances and everytime I said it was all good and it really wasn't or I would put a wall of protection around me in fear of being judged or admitting I was a mess how can I be used if I am in a mess??? The real truth though is we are "ALL" a mess if left to ourselves and take our focus off of the Lord Jesus you see HE IS STRENGTHENED IN OUR WEAKNESSES so the fact that we are weak shows our very need for Jesus in our day to day lives. I had needed (as we all do) to fix my eyes and hope upon Jesus no matter what or how hard the circumstances ,
life has purpose and meaning yet only in Christ not in my flesh. The Lord has promised to keep watch on us always as a shepherd cares for his sheep(Matt.28:20;John 10:14) Through our troubled times by the power of the HOLY SPIRIT these circumstances become opportunities
to learn more about God's faithfulness, draw on His strength, and experience personal growth woohoo.......
I want all those things. Here is the big one we need to resist our former lifestyle, when trouble comes it is tempting to revert to ungodly habits or to take up new ones (in which was my case)
In these seasons of life , Satan will encourage us to pursue any path that leads away from the Lord in my case it was denial of the real matter at hand. I needed to remember I am a NEW CREATION whose lifestyle is to match my position as a child of God not of this world. Next thing
that has been revealed to me over this weekend is that we need (starting with myself) to make holiness our main goal, being "holy" or set apart begins with :
GIVING UP CONTROL OVER THINGS IN OUR LIVES AND ALLOWING THE HOLY SPIRIT TO GUIDE AND DIRECT OUR PATHS IN EVERY AREA OF OUR LIVES NOT MOST,
WE MUST SUBMIT TO HIM AND WITH ABSOLUTELY NO CONDITIONS. NOW this one knocked me back a few feet .....you see for the most part I have been pretty obedient in most areas of my life wow that is what I was getting tripped up on God wants every area to be given to Him and I up until now wasnt willing I held on to an area where I thought I could control it and the other circumstance being in my marriage I was being soooooo VERY SELFISH and doing things out of expectance and with conditions scary place to be trust me I just have learned this lesson THE VERY HARD WAY . Taking control of what is God's (which is my very life and all within it) and not my own is sin it had me focusing on self which is idolatry YIKES. We all want the FULLNESS of what the Lord has for us and unless we focus always upon Him we will not be blessed with that fullness and then we are robbed of our true joy in which is found in Christ alone. As I am coming out of this season in which has been very difficult I KNOW I HAVE BEEN RESTORED back to the Lord I have been so blessed that we serve a God who if He sees fit will bring us out of our trials just as soon as we put our focus back where it belongs. You see my friends He has given us free will and we wake up daily and it is up to us to choose whom we will serve will it be PICKING UP OUR CROSSES AND FOLLOWING AFTER HIM OR will it be to choose self and the things of this world which in essence following Satan????? I dont know about you but as for me and my house we shall choose this day and every day here after to Follow the Lord I WILL NO LONGER SERVE MY FLESH may I decrease that He may increase..........

If we are given to the Lord with the right heart , willingly and cheerfully, the results will be that we will always have everything we need. we will have all sufficiency in ALL THINGS.
words by: Chuck Smith off of the verse 2 cor.9:8

we need to trust in God alone ......trusting in ourselves is an invitation to have Satan enter in and start to destroy our lives and once we allow this it is a very fast downward spiral to destruction in all areas of life our own lives,those around us such as family, friends, our ministries the very things God has blessed us with and I know for me personally I dont want that to even be an option so I choose Jesus. I am thankful for the body of Christ and for the wonderful sister's the Lord has placed in my life to love me, befriend me, listen to me, iron in which to sharpen my iron, to rebuke me when needed in love, to be about their Father's business THANK YOU you know whom you are and your prayers and encouragement and love and rebukes have meant so much to me and am so blessed we serve together in a church where restoration is a priority.

I DO ASK YOU TO ALL PRAY EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I HAVE BEEN RESTORED , I ALSO KNOW THE ENEMY WANTS TO STOP THAT ....... WHILE STRUGGLES AND TRIALS WILL INDEED STILL COME MY WAY AS THEY ARE APART OF EVERYDAY LIFE I KNOW I AM NOT TO BE OVERCOME BY THEM AND NOT TO LOOSE SIGHT AND KEEP FOCUSED REMAINING ON CHRIST ALONE TO SEE ME THROUGH THEM ONE DAY AT A TIME.
MAY WE FIND HOPE IN OUR LORD THIS DAY AND AS THE THRU THE WORD SAID TODAY IN CHAPTER 10:5 b may we "bring every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ" as hard as our days may seem may we daily hour by hour minute by minute hold every thought captive and choose to pick up our crosses and follow hard after Him and not the things of this world in which are but only for a moment. God bless you all

Until Next Time,
Your Sis in Christ,
Cindy